JOSH HADDOW Hi. My name’s Josh. I’m about to take some acid. And then I’m going to go to a open comedy mic night and tell us some of my original jokes. MUSIC PLAYING JAMIE TAETE Hi. I’m Jamie Taete, Vice journalist. And I like watching people trip on acid. I especially like watching people trip on acid in really awkward situations. Tonight, I’m going to be going with our friend, Josh, as he performs open mic nights in London on acid. Hi, Josh. JOSH HADDOW All right, Jamie. JAMIE TAETE When we were filming downstairs a minute.
Ago, you seemed a bit worried. What was going on JOSH HADDOW Yeah. You were definitely out of the room for, like, an uncalled for amount of time. JAMIE TAETE I think it was probably about four minutes. JOSH HADDOW Yeah. Four long, long minutes. JAMIE TAETE And how are you feeling right now Talk us through it. JOSH HADDOW I think a bit fucked, really. JAMIE TAETE What are you seeing Are you getting sort of any kind of visuals JOSH HADDOW Yeah, I can see. JAMIE TAETE That’s good.
JOSH HADDOW And then, do you know what My mind’s gone about three triples inside of itself now. LAUGHTER JOSH HADDOW I can’t fucking understand what’s going on. I don’t know. It’s just so weird. I could tell it was starting to kick in because, well, everything was getting a lot more vibrant to start with. The visual started coming along. You held your hand out in front of me and it was, like, withering away. And I felt embarrassed to tell you. I felt like you’re going to take it as an.
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Insult, so I didn’t. Am I going to get through this JAMIE TAETE Yeah, you’re going to get through this. JOSH HADDOW I’m probably going to throw up by the end of it. JAMIE TAETE Are you feeling nauseous JOSH HADDOW Everything’s very trailey. So that’s happening. Can you take care of me LAUGHTER JAMIE TAETE Oh, Josh. I’ll take care of you. JOSH HADDOW Oh, my God. What the fuck am I doing I was kind of not enjoying it. And not giving myself a chance to enjoy it because I was so.
Busy dealing with the whole premise and the reason that we were doing it. Do you know what’s really hard to, like, comprehend right now JAMIE TAETE What JOSH HADDOW The fact that I’m in a documentary right now. It’s just such an intense environment to start with. LAUGHTER JAMIE TAETE OK. JOSH HADDOW Doubled onto the fact that I’m on acid. JAMIE TAETE You’re panicking a little bit, but you don’t need to panic at all. JOSH HADDOW In the flat, my mental state went from not great to pretty awful, really.
As it became apparent that we were going to have to leave soon, I just, my mind was, like, shit. Like, I’m only just getting used to this environment of having to think about what I’m going to do. And I got that thing where you kind of, everything’s quite sort of focused in on just the fact that I didn’t want to go. No. What are we doing JAMIE TAETE We’re getting in the cab. JOSH HADDOW OK. OK. JAMIE TAETE You ready JOSH HADDOW Can I just have a little bit more water.
JAMIE TAETE Are you done You ready to go JOSH HADDOW I can’t work out the stairs let alone OK, let’s just No. Fuckin’ hell. JAMIE TAETE I’ll be with you on the stairs. JOSH HADDOW Cheers, man. Thank you. It was just becoming more and more like, OK, this is happening. This is happening. That pressure was just sort of insurmountable at that point. I can’t do this. I don’t know. JAMIE TAETE All right. Let’s just Shall we get in the cab and see, like, you’ll be in a.
Different room. JOSH HADDOW Oh, no, no, no, no, no. OK. Just two seconds backwards from there. Let me just process that. I feel like a lot of that pressure was definitely backed up by myself. And you guys could probably sense that. So you were sort of wanting to push me along. It was horrible, really, in the cab. I mean, apart from anything it was ruining my trip. On top of the fact that I was, you know, literally on the way to the place. And every second was taking me closer to it, which meant.
There was a sort of very sharp growth of dread in my mindset. Now we’re on the way now, aren’t we For all I knew at that point, you were going to shove me on a stage in a Western theater in front of, like, thousands of people expected me to do a song and dance. Like, I literally have no idea. OK. Let’s just go for it and see what happens, eh I’m going to go walk here. Is this a point It’s so intense. JAMIE TAETE It’s a picture of Michael Jackson.
JOSH HADDOW It’s so, so intense right now. He’s dead, newly dead. The environment around Shaftesbury Avenue is so intense. It felt very much like I’d got to this sort of culminating scene in some action film where something very, very bad is about to happen. And it’s very, very close. Like, if it was a heist film, like, we were about to go into the bank or something. I was going to get shot. CITY NOISE JOSH HADDOW Is it like, 300 in the afternoon or is there a bunch of kids around.
It’s amazing. I didn’t feel like I should be around them in my state of mind. Not that I was going to do anything or, like, not like I was dangerous. But it just felt wrong. Yeah. Getting to the club which interesting. MALE SPEAKER INAUDIBLE when you empty my wallet and leave me sexually frustrating And babe, you’ve been doing that all fucking week. LAUGHTER JOSH HADDOW Yeah, I feel like I’ve bullied myself into doing it. JAMIE TAETE That’s not good. You OK to go on JOSH HADDOW Well, fuck it.
I’m here now. This just looks like a cruel human experiment doesn’t it That’s fucking what it is. LAUGHTER JAMIE TAETE Do you think you can handle it Do you think you can mentally handle it JOSH HADDOW Probably not. Everything like that. What is that, like, some sort of JAMIE TAETE He banged the mic. JOSH HADDOW But is that like some sort of MALE SPEAKER At that moment I learned a very important life lesson. JOSH HADDOW Am I getting What is going on You must know. What’s going on.
Up to that point, basically, everything had become sort of like this black hole of despair around me. It sounds like it’s hyperbole, but honestly, it was horrible. It just seemed like I was faced with the most just unclimbable mountain. I was just like, if I go up there, I’m just not going to be able to face the crowd. They’re going to start jeering me. Because I’m probably not going to be able to say anything. I’ll be so frightened. MALE SPEAKER Make some noise for Josh Haddow! JOSH HADDOW So when they called my name out and they.
Cheered, I just remember sort of going into auto function. Part of me was just like, you’re going to do it now. It was definitely some part of me just sort of taking me up there. And it felt like destiny. Getting up there and then it was silent. And it was suddenly like, because it was silent, like, my mind kind of took a breath. There’s this space for me to think, I may as well just tell my joke. So the SAS, they’ve not got any people left in them.
So they have interviews, open interviews. And a farmer comes along and he goes, I want to join the SAS. I’m really brave. And they say, well, what’s brave about you, what in your life And he says, well, one day, I was out farming. And the tractor broke down three miles away from where I lived with my wife, Mrs. Farmer. And she the tract Yeah, the tractor, the tractor broke down. I looked into the tractor engine and it bolted back to life. And it ripped one on of my arms off.
So I was, like, shit. I’ve only got one arm. And so I grabbed it grabbed that arm and ran all the way back. Mrs. Farmer, she sewed it back on. And now here I am. And they said, that’s very brave. Well done. LAUGHTER JOSH HADDOW You’re definitely in to the SAS. Then he said, thank you. I’ll see you on Monday. And now only that’s it. MALE SPEAKER Give it up for INAUDIBLE. JOSH HADDOW As I said, at that point, all the anxiety was kind of, was melting away.
And I was starting to have fun, actually. It was like, chariots of fucking fire. I was like, I’m going. I’m like, and I’m on my way now. And then literally, like almost running into your arms, like, I fucking did it! Seriously, violins started playing in my head. It was like da, da, da. Fucking amazing. JAMIE TAETE When you were going up I was very anxious for you. And I did feel a bit like I was going to die. But I thought you did a lot better than I thought.
You were going to. How long do you think you were on stage for JOSH HADDOW Probably about an hour. LAUGHTER JOSH HADDOW I remember just being very, very happy. And I was still tripping quite hard. So it was really cool. Because it was like, I could enjoy my trip. And although I was in quite an intimidating environment, I felt so invincible. I felt like I’d achieved such a massive thing that that threatening environment was really not threatening anymore. It’s just quite fun to play around in. And my inhibitions completely dropped, probably so far that.
I probably annoyed and pissed off quite a lot of the public I interacted with. JAMIE TAETE Did you see Josh’s performance MALE SPEAKER Yes. JAMIE TAETE And what did you think of Josh as a first time comedian MALE SPEAKER You know, first time was cool, pretty confident. JAMIE TAETE Have you ever done stand up on acid MALE SPEAKER Have I ever done stand up on acid I don’t think so. But if you’ve got photos I do apologize. JAMIE TAETE What do you think it would be like.
MALE SPEAKER I think you could do it and the audience wouldn’t actually know. Are you on acid JOSH HADDOW Yeah. MALE SPEAKER No, seriously JOSH HADDOW Yeah. MALE SPEAKER That’s fucking crazy. Are you serious JOSH HADDOW Yeah. MALE SPEAKER Yeah. You know, so. JOSH HADDOW It’s just fine. It’s nothing. MALE SPEAKER But the reality is, the reality is JOSH HADDOW Do you have any idea what I’ve been though JAMIE TAETE And what about the guy you spoke to outside Do you remember much of the conversation JOSH HADDOW I was elated.
I was almost ecstatic and euphoric at that point. So I was just carefree. But I just couldn’t help myself, because he was just so absurd to me. I wanted to play with him like a kitten plays with a ball of wool. Oh, my God. What are you talking about I thought he was a fool. LAUGHTER JOSH HADDOW What I took away from it I mean, the whole night was hugely introspective. It’s an introspective drug. I felt like I was starring in my own movie, which I actually.
Was in a way. Can you help me light this Like, I’m fucked. Like, I can’t even light this cigarette. It was all very, very strange, and very intense, and introverted. And with acid and the way it enhances your emotions, it sort of amplifies them. One of the emotions that it really amplified for me was pride in myself, which was really, really good. It was amazing. Achievement’s only worth it if you feel quite proud of what you’ve achieved. That was actually an amazing experience. It was incredibly cathartic.